Day 4

Wow..the first 3 days are over.  It’s now 5:40 am of the 4th day.  I think it’s getting easier although it may just be all in my head.  I have to say I have not cheated at all.  That’s pretty good considering I haven’t been able to stick to something more than a day (or even a few hours) lately when it comes to food.  I do feel like I’m slowly gaining some ground on my food addicition. 

Wait…can someone really be addicted to food?  I’m not sure but there are times when I do feel like a junkie and I have to have my ‘fix’.  Ok…I’ve never been a true junkie so I have no idea what that even feels like but when I wake up and the first thing I think about is food and I go to bed and the last thing I think about is food…that seems a little weird. 

I often day dream what my life will be like when I’m 40 lbs lighter.  I have been there a few times in my life.  It’s funny…I usually drop the 40lbs when I’m man-less.  Then I get a man and slowly the weight comes back on.  What’s up with that?   Not good. 

There are some people that are meant to be heavy.  I’m really not one of those people.  The fact is, I’m VERY athletic.  I am good at any sport or activity I try (well almost anything).  I was a gymnast growing up, I played coompetitive softball, volleyball, cheerleeding, etc.  That’s me…active and good at what I try.  I used to snowboard and honestly, it was some of the best times I have ever had.  I remember being able to fly down the mountain and it was the best feeling…ever! 

So you see…I’m just not designed to sit in front of this computer all day.  It’s a waste.   It’s such a catch 22 you know..I’m overweight because I’m not active and have been over eating but because I’m overweight I dont have the energy to actually get out there and do all the stuff I love. 

I will say these past 3 days I have been going to be earlier than usual.  I used to be a 9pm kind of girl.  Now granted, I’m always up at 5am..yes, even on weekends and on vacation, etc.  It’s a sickness really.    But over the past year or so, my bed time has creeped up to around 11 pm.  Well….the last 3 nights I have been VERY tired by 9 and have literally had to pry myself away from my computer and hit the bed.  It’s been kind of nice although I have a ton of work to do on the website.

Enough or today, I’ll give you an update tomorroow.